The Next Best Decision

Whenever something goes wrong, no matter how badly you have messed up, the best thing for you to do is make the next best decision.
What an adorable favor for a beach-style wedding. A perfect fit for the Bonnet Island Estate in Manahawkin, NJ.

What an adorable favor for a beach-style wedding. A perfect fit for the Bonnet Island Estate in Manahawkin, NJ.

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I actually give up. I have stayed strong for this long, but I can’t do it any more. I seriously hate my life, and have never meant that more than I do today. 

 done. over it.

Grown Up… Finally.

Here I sit, before all of you reading this, (all of you being probably only 2 people) and my computer of course, a grown up. 

  Things have changed so much in the past two years. Things really being me. I am an entirely different person and I absolutely love it. If I could proclaim how much I love my new self like Lilian in Bridesmaids does about her new asshole, I would. Yes, it is that kind of love.

  Since graduating high school I have grown into myself and gone after what I wanted, I being me making me selfish, but as a good friend once told me, no one is going to be selfish for you but yourself. I met a man, who forever changed me into something I never thought I could be. Although we are no longer together he is still an extremely important person in my life, who is still ever present and always there when I need him. 

 This summer I have a real deal, 40+ hour a week job. I have a budget of approximately half a million dollars and a nine million corporation relying on the quality of my work. I have to say, I am obviously beyond nervous, but my excitement trumps that. I, a 19 year old, am the marketing and advertising coordinator for a 9 million dollar company? That is insane!

  I would love to talk to those people in high school who put me second and third to the blonde cheating sluts I used to think were my best friends. The people who were there for me in the toughest times, were the people who knew me the least, people I may have talked about when consumed by the bubble of popularity. Those people are the people I am doing this job for. Those are the people I want to see my strength, my drive, my passion and my perseverance. Not those morons from high school who sat through prom chomping at the bit waiting to get in a limo and drink themselves into oblivion for the weekend in a crappy rental house. 

  So cheers friends, although we may have lost touch you are still on my mind constantly. This one is for you.